11 Truths.

This is for all the times I’ve stood in a mirror for way too long overanalyzing my features, praying that my insecurities would melt away. Hoping that my booty grew or my acne would just give it a rest. This is for the time I opened my front camera after 3 days of not looking at myself to see that acne had taken over and I was someone I could not recognize. This is hard, but this is for me. A few weeks ago I posted a picture that was untouched, unrefined. Heart beating, sweating, pass out scary. But so necessary. Instagram is a powerful platform, but I wanted to hold myself accountable and add it to my blog for good measure. Think it, write it, say it aloud, pray upon it to solidify. Here goes. 
1. My real name is not Subi 💕 — For those of you who have known me for some time, my real name is not far from that name I go by now. Everyone started calling me this when I started college and it sort of stuck. It was a family name and now this is what people yell across the quad to get my attention! I like the sound of it.
2. Acne is my biggest insecurity. — Woah. Heart beating, sweating, pass out, breathe. Acne is my biggest insecurity. In my senior year of high school, I began AP classes in order to get ahead for college. This was the time that my acne began as well. Sleepless nights, stress and a whole lot of coffee. There was no getting a hold of it. My mom surprised me with proactive during Christmas holiday and my skin was clear for years. I love proactive. Summer 2017. The summer before my senior year of college rolls around and after some research, I decided that Proactiv was hurting more than helping me. (Seriously guys it’s a super drug for acne.) I was in the midst of changing the way I lived and wanted to try a natural route. I knew the acne would come back but never the way it did. It was bad. When I had a bad breakout, which was quite often, I would want to run and hide in a dark room from everyone. This is the one thing in my life that I feel like I’ll never be able to control. I am challenging myself to embrace this insecurity and use it to inspire and uplift because no one should look in the mirror and not like what they see. I’m learning to embrace all of my flaws. One step at a time. I’m planning to write a post all about my skin journey soon guys, so stay tuned. 
3. I have never been to a hair salon. — Such a silly truth but really! I taught myself to do my hair: trim it, style it, and nourish it. It may not be perfect but it’s working for me! I could never find a stylist to do my hair or cut it without applying heat and that was and is a no-go for me. It wasn’t until a few years ago that deva cuts, trims, and haircuts formulated for curly hair evolved and became uber popular. One day, I’d like to take a leap and trust in a stylist to give me my first experience in their chair.
4. Nothing makes my heart sing more than travel. The rush of takeoff and the thrill of being in the air, the colors, immersing myself in different cultures the clouds… there is nothing like it. Many of you know that I went abroad for the first time in the fall of 2016 for school. My world has been changed since. One day I will travel the world and make money off of adventure.
5. My favorite color is Blue 🦋 — No wild story here, I’ve always loved blue. As a child up until high school, it was all I would wear. I felt most at peace in blue. Maybe it’s because blue reminds me of the sea? I love the ocean and the wonderful things in it, and this brings me to my sixth truth.
6. I am a Cancer 🦀 — Yea yea, we’re intense. Nià if you’re reading this don’t even girl LOL. I had no clue about horoscopes and all that star sign stuff until recently and I’m learning. Some of it accurate, other stuff, eh, I feel like it’s not talking about me, but do all cancers say that?? I am intense though, honest and sometimes a liiiitttle unwilling to take on blame immediately before explaining myself. (Confession.) But we all have our weaknesses right? I am still learning mine.
7. #SubiToVegan — I have just begun my journey into a meatless diet in the efforts to get a hold on my health. Lately, my body hasn’t been processing meat or fish as it used to, so I went out on a limb and decided to give it all up. It’s going well! I’m documenting my journey as a college student on meal plan through Instagram with a highlight stuck to my page. It’s going well! I’ll let you guys know when I give up ice cream. hahaha *neverrr*
8. Fear of Driving — It wasn’t always this way. I had my first car accident on October 15,2017 at 12:15AM. Each time I step into a car, I relive those horrible moments. It’s almost like I’m in a movie, outside looking in at the tragedy. Every day I think about what I could have done to prevent it, but we can’t change the past. Slowly but surely, I’m making my peace with it. I don’t know when and if I’ll ever be confident enough to get behind the wheel again, but whenever that time comes, I pray to be ready 🚘
9. Hidden Talents — I sing. Not in the belt-it-to-your-favorite-song-in-the- shower kind of sing, though I do that too. I was in chorus/choir from elementary school until I graduated from high school. I’m not Beyonce but ya girl can carry a tune!! When I got to college, I gave it up because I thought I was wasting my time when I could be taking classes. God granted me this beautiful gift and I don’t use it often enough. I’m going to sing more, maybe I’ll film a youtube video this year with my vocals in the back, we’ll see.
10. Flowers = Funerals? — I don’t like the smell of cut flowers because they remind me of funerals🥀 I’ll never forget the day of my grandfather’s funeral and the tens of flowers in our house, at the church, at the memorial home. I was so young but that smell, I haven’t forgotten. I’m not a fan of bouquets for this reason, though they are pretty. But, give me a green, living, breathing plant in a pot and I’m warm all over happy.
11. Smile — My favorite part about me. See me in any family photo, I am cheezing like mozzarella, I love smiling!! It makes me feel good, and especially when I’m around people who I love and who have really great energy, it’s a done deal. You won’t find me smiling down the street like a goof tho, that creeps me out!!
Hopefully,  this, all of you will know me a little better. There’s much more to me, but this is a start.

 

Sending you hugs and good energy through the internet waves,

xoxo, Subi

#RawInfluencing

Hey there! I hope all of you are thriving and living life fine. Today I wanted to come to you with a post to continue to set the mood for what you should expect from the blog and me, as an influencer. Some of you may have noticed that my Instagram has taken a bit of a shift in these past weeks. Hopefully, this post will help clear up some confusion and curiosity.

This all started about 5 months ago and I was scrolling through social media, no less, and realized that so many of the pages I came across were so beautifully put together, almost to the point where I felt a bit skeptical about the truth behind the posts. Pages were set grayscale or white, grainy or polaroid, but the content was a little too staged. See, it hit me that all of these pages that I was seeing, pages run by these influencers that young men and women were looking up to, people these young kings and queens aspired to be, we’re not painting a fair picture. Now let’s backtrack.

There is nothing wrong with having an Instagram page that is aesthetically pleasing to the eye. It’s no easy feat! If it was, everyone would do it. I am here for the content creating, the brand partnership, the documentation of good things to inspire others. There is a problem with painting an unrealistic picture of how your life is lived. I say this because that same picture you are painting is what these young leaders are buying and hanging up in their house of trust, trusting that you are who you say you are, and no one else. That perfect picture may or may not be the whole story. Privacy is a must; I’m all for keeping certain parts of your life just for you; it’s when you allude to living a perfect life with no worries, or when you get to a certain place in life and don’t share the struggles it took you to get there is where it gets tricky.

See, these young men and women, they are looking to you, to me, to us, to guide them. It’s a heavy burden to bear- you want to stay true but sometimes the truth may not get 10000 likes, it only gets 400. Or it’s scary. Maybe your management isn’t down for it. But we’ve taken this job on, and we have a duty to not only to them- to readers, supporters, fans even- to urge ourselves to be our most authentic. I remember 4 years ago scrolling on social media thinking, ” Wow, I could never do what they do,” or “I wish I could be her, maybe just for a day. What’s that like?” I never wanted to feel that way again.

Which brings me to my new mission of #Raw Influencing. I curated this hashtag to stand as my pledge and promise to always be my most authentic self on and off of social media. It means that while influencing, I will be me, and only me. I don’t want to paint a picture of this perfect life where it’s all glamour and fun minus a bump in the road because let’s just real– my life is sometimes a mess, and you know what? That’s okay. #Raw  I am a young woman, still figuring life out, wisdom comes in trials, failure comes with success. All days are not good hair days or skin days #Raw — trust me we’ll talk about that–  and there are even days where I simply don’t feel like posting or writing or creating content. But I’m a big sharer. My parents and friends tell me that sometimes I share too much, and to an extent, yes, but there are times when the bit of over sharing is just enough. I’m happy to do so. Living a double life is not for me, that’s a whole other job that I’d have to take on and I simply will not. Some days it’s hard to stay true. To remain authentic. To tell the whole story, but you know what? When you become the person you were always meant to be and let that bit of fear go that is holding you back from truly shining, God will show you favor, the universe will treat you kind and breathing will come easy. I have faith in me to do this; I urge all of you reading this, wherever you are, to hold me accountable. Challenge me- push me further –  all in love of course. I want to be more. Thank you in advance for being an active part of my journey. I’m so excited to grow with all of you.

Sending you hugs through the internet waves.

xoxo, Subi

Back for the Long Haul

Hey there,

My my my has it been a while. The seasons have changed, the world has changed, and so has the year. I met all my goals for 2017, finally committed to creating content as an influencer, I wrote more, and then stopped writing. In 2017 I came face to face with my biggest insecurities and turned my beauty into strength. In October I had my first car accident that almost took my life, and since changed my outlook on living ever since. When I look back on all that has happened in my life, the good, the bad, I’m reminded of the importance being in tune: mentally, physically and emotionally. Today I’m here to make a pact with myself.

I will not run myself dry. — In the past two years I have learned so much about myself. Throughout the year I check, in with my closest friends and ask if there is anything that I could work on, to be a better friend, person, and better me. One of the biggest realizations that I had, thanks to a friend, is that I had FOMO. Jeannette if you’re reading this, thank you. I had no idea what this was, never heard of it or even remotely familiar with the phrase. Fear of Missing Out. For so long I had prided myself on always being busy and staying busy that I didn’t understand that all busy is not good busy. When an opportunity would come my way, I would take it. I told myself that “when will I get an opportunity like this again.” Or “I can move somethings around and make this work.” Maybe it was the people-pleaser in me, but I could not bring myself to decline an opportunity, even if it meant giving up essential things I needed to thrive. I became overwhelmed, stressed, and tired as hell. Having that conversation, with someone who knew me so well, was refreshing and so necessary. She saw right through me and was able to act as a mirror, to let me know that sometimes that tiredness I’m feeling should not be ignored, and taking care of me was important too. So this year I plan to keep my cup full and remain in tune with myself so that when the time comes to say no, or yes, I will do it wholeheartedly and be sure of myself.

I will not accept less than what I know I deserve. — There is no big story here. Just a fact that women, and men, everywhere should say aloud on the daily. There is no reason why anyone, anywhere should have to compromise a part of themselves or take less than what is written for them. If only you would have fought for that raise, maybe you should have been upfront with that brand about what your rates for promotions were, maybe you should have told your significant other/ person where you truly stand. Anytime you find yourself willing to make a decision to please someone else and you are not at peace, repeat the phrase in your head, aloud even. “I will not accept less than what I know I deserve.”  Apply this to your relationships- business and professional – and the rest will fall into place. As Drake would say, “Know yourself, know your worth.” This mentality is one I will say daily.

More Creating.  — Albert Camus said, “To create is to live twice.” When I came back from France two years ago, everything fell into place. I started writing and documenting my travels, my journey through life became a story that I had no trouble sharing. I was on a roll, my happiest times were documented and I felt alive and free, I was doing school, and writing for a magazine, and doing it well. Somewhere along the way I just decided, eh, kinda want to be a hermit right now so no more. I’m good. But I missed it. And I’m making a pact with myself to keep going. Keep doing. More creating. Because it makes my heart sing, because new experiences fuel me, and adventures bring me joy. So I will continue to do what I love – whether that be to write, to sing, to dance, to love, and document it all. To have a space to look back on this wonderfull life and say, “yea, I did that.”

No more dreaming. — “Be. Don’t try to become.” – Osho   For all the people in the world who say, “man I would love to go to Europe,” or “If only I had the courage to start my youtube channel.” Maybe you’re the one in the room who makes promises to yourself. “I’m going to try to be better at this,” or “my biggest dream is to go to Martinique.” There are people in the world who took wishful thinking and turned it into a plan of action. They’ve been to Europe. Your favorite blog? Yea, they run that. Mozambique? They went there last week. What I mean to say is that while you are sitting there and dreaming, someone has already done, or is doing it. And you can too. You want to go to Istanbul? Make a plan, do your research, talk to people who have been there, save that money! Easier said than done, but if it was easy, everyone would be doing it. I have a saying that I’ve started saying often, and it’s growing on me. “Nothing will happen unless you make it so.” No longer am I going to dream about what I want my life to look like, but rather make it so. If I want to have a good day, I’m going to get up and head to the gym, because I know that’s what gets me moving and ready to be awesome. If I want to feel good, I’m going to listen to my body and stay away from dairy and meat, because I know it doesn’t make my body feel good. I want to work with a brand? I’m sending that email, trying their products so they know I am an active customer and am genuinely here for more than just the perks. So no more dreaming, instead I will do.

Trust The Process. — Quite possibly one of the most important things to keep in mind in order to live a life of peace and well-being. I always say that what is for you, God has already written. So there is no need to fear for the future. I remind myself of this every day. To put forth the work and effort on my part, and then give the rest to God, because past that point there is nothing else I can do. All of my triumphs, my greatest moments are because of Him. So that is my promise, my mantra for 2018; my mantra for life.

 

Sending hugs through the internet waves,

Subi

 

 

#SubiAdventures: Spontaneous Trips & Nostalgia

Hey there pals!!

Summer has come to an end, classes are in full swing, and I find myself wondering where all the time has gone. The days seem shorter, the sun peeks into my window a little earlier, and I feel like I’m rushing against the clock. In an effort to keep the summer magic alive, in the middle of July, I made spontaneous plans and took a trip to Florida. I had no qualms about searching for a flight and booking it the same day, and it was so cheap, I couldn’t pass it up! (Let me know if you guys want details on how I book my flights and travel and I’ll be sure to post about it!)

From Monday – Saturday I had a whole spread of sunshine and opportunity to glow, recharge and enjoy life with my OG travel pals: family. From visiting places that I used to love as a child, to trying new foods, I could feel all my worries slipping away and becoming simple whispers upon the wind. There are tons of things that I want to share with you guys, videos and pictures and laughs, but I’ll save that for the Tube. (Yes, Guys!! I’m headed to YouTube finallyyyyy) All the content I’ve been creating will be live for you guys to see by the beginning of October, so stay ready so you never have to get readyyy!! For now, I’ll share with you guys some of my favorite highlights from the trip.

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Swap Shop Drive-In Movie Theater!!

3291 W Sunrise Blvd, Fort Lauderdale, FL 33311

(954) 791-7927

https://www.floridaswapshop.com/

Swap Shop

To an outsider this may not look like much, but the Swap Shop is a Caribbean Gyal’s paradise. Here, vendors and hagglers, schemers and dreamers alike all gather the same roof to sell their goods. There are food carts, and clothing booths, electronic stores and beauty corners. But the best part has to be the fresh food isle. Located in the back of the market grounds, Haitian men and woman dominate the playing field.

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My top and shorts are from Forever 21, and my sandals are from Marshalls!

There are fresh dragon fruit, sweets, mangoes and my favorite- fresh coconuts. As a little girl I used to come here and beg my dad to get a coconut for me and have the coco-man cut a hole into it. He would stick a straw in it and just like that, my favorite drink was ready for the taking. Over the course of the week I returned here 5 times with my parents, to buy new threads, eat coconuts and have a few laughs with the woman we always buy mangos from. It was all good fun- from the first day we got stranded there in the pouring rain to the final day when she gave me a free avocado for the road- I was in paradise.

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My top is from Marshalls and my shorts are vintage Old Navy!

Key West

It was first time this far south in Florida, and the drive was long. From Miami to the Keys during that 5 hour drive it seemed that with every 20 miles the sun shone brighter and the sky turned more blue.

How can you come to Florida and not visit the beach? You can’t. If you stayed on the coast like we did, then it is unavoidable, and for good reason. Here, you can find the house of Ernest Hemingway, one of my favorite writers, and some of the yummiest homemade ice cream on the coast. I was asleep the whole ride minus a few times I woke up to film the spreads of water that we would pass, and I woke up in an iguana filled wonderland. No seriously – this place was filled with iguanas! In the streets, on the trees, lurking in the grass, basking in the sun, they were living it up! The picture above is the southern most point of the continental US. Here, you’ll be just  90 miles away from Cuba!

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Little Haiti

This town is everything that I thought it would be. From the colorful murals ,the blues the pinks, the yellows, it was like stepping into a tropical crayon box. From the fruit filled markets, all the way to the warmth of the people who lived there, Little Haiti felt just like home. As a Haitian American living here, I make it my mission to stay connected to my culture. Diaspora communities like these are not few and far between, especially in Miami; little Haiti was in a less than glamorous part of town, but even so, the charm and genuine nature of the inhabitants was clear.  We started off at a community center that had an art exhibition of Haitian paintings and a summer program for children in the community.

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My choker is from Asodáre, my overalls are vintage Tommy Hilfiger and my sandals are from Marshalls!

Rita’s Italian Ice

This way to Happiness! That’s how I feel whenever I eat Rita’s. I convinced the fam to stop and let me get some shopping in st Sephora; down the street something caught my eye- Rita’s!  The Ice’s are either water or cream based and they taste so good and have such yummy flavors! My favorites are Swedish Fish and Cotton Candy, and I get it in a Gelato, which is a dessert that has a base layer of a cream or water ice, custard (vanilla, chocolate or swirl), another layer of  italian ice, and then a last dollop of custard. The Vanilla is my favorite!! Ice cream and ices are one dessert that i can eat anytime and anyplace– this includes the winter time — and not feel guilty about it. xoxo Rita’s I love you.

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My Choker is from Asodara, my crop top from Forever 21 and the overalls are vintage Tommy Hilfiger!

This trip was essential to prepare me for the beginning of my last year at University. It was the first time in a long time that i travelled with family, I visited places that I only remember from memory and the food was bombbb. I can’t wait to share all the magic of this trip with all of you!! Be on the lookout for more updates on social media, and let me know in the comments below, or email, what you’d like to see more off, less of, of if you just want to say hello!

Sending you smiles and a healthy promise of good things to come. xoxo

Sincerely,

Subi

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

FRODAY ATL: Self Love, Hair Tings & Good Vibes

This past month, was privileged enough to experience real magic. Whenever I talk natural hair or the accomplishments of my friends,  #BlackGirlMagic I feel truly empowered. There was a room of girls, with natural hair. Beauty was all around me coming from every directions, shining through all the cracks and spaces between the plants. It was #FroDayATL .

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There she is! Miss Frogirl, Niá! I see Dominique, Kii, Helen, Lydia, and Diamond in the back!

Froday was created by Niá Pettitt, aka @frogirlginny on Instagram, aka Niá the Light. She created #FroDay as a platform to encourage and inspire women to be their best selves and embrace the most natural and raw parts of them. It started out with hair — now Niá is on a quest to use her platform for something bigger, and that was clear when FroDayATL started. Sponsored by DevaCurl, Niá toured the U.S for this trip and made Atlanta a stop, it was meant to be!

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Diamond telling us a little about herself.

FroDayATL was hosted at Loca Luna– a premiere tapas restaurant and lounge in Atlanta. We all walked in, and there were gift bags by everyone’s seats with products from DevaCurl. These products are super expensive so I was grateful for the chance to try even 2 of them! In true Haitian fashion, I showed up late, but all was well because everyone was just settling in. I don’t want to ruin it for anyone because where is the fun in spoilers? The funny thing about all of this is that as we were looking around the room it was clear that some of us recognized each other from Instagram so it was funny to recognize and make introductions in person. We all stood up and said why we were there, our names and a quality we liked best about ourselves. I said that I liked my determination and drive. One girl in the room said that she liked something physical about herself the most– her eyebrows, but everyone else mentioned character traits. When Niá bought it to our attention, the room fell silent, and there were scattered chuckles. I think as young women growing up we are taught not to be vain, and this can hold us back from loving all parts of ourselves, what is inside and out.

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Helen, Chicoiya, Kayla Madonna, KD

And so, Niá challenged us to love and embrace all of it– the good, the bad, the ugly. To own our insecurities and work toward throwing them away, and to love our flaws. For me it was my skin– since stopping Proactiv +, a horrible acne drug, my face has been raging with acne. I haven’t felt confident, I hide from the camera, but most of all, I hide. But in that room, with all of us together, young women and grown, I didn’t have to hide. I made friends that I still am in contact with today, and my community of curl friends has grown immensely. We took pictures, and laughed, connected and we all shined together. It was an amazing end to the summer and the beginning of my senior year of University-I won’t too soon forget.

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The stunning and wise Geneva Diamond fluffing her mane!  xoxo

The girls and I — we connected. Over the simplest thing, hair, and it should always be that simple, that organic. Some of their spirits, I could feel them, and those ladies I am still connected with today. The event lasted all of 3 hours and I found myself eager to make plans and see these girls again, to be around them again, so we could all be in that feel-good energy that came so easily to us that day. These curl friends will last a long time.

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This gem’s name is Sterling and she is amazing. My definite soul sister- she had just big-chopped the week before!

Thank you to DevaCurl for sponsoring this wonderful event and a big thank you to Niá, who I call a friend. She thinks Cancers are crazy, but  she can’t get rid of me now! My Gemini sister, and friend, I hope to see you back in ATL soon, but until then– Happy FroDay everyone!! I challenge you guys to embrace you– all parts, the good, the bad, the ugly, your insecurities and strengths. All of you.

FullSizeRender 4Don’t forget to follow me on social media for updates and to keep up loves:

Twitter @su_beer_ahhhh  Instagram @su_beer_ahhh  Facebook @ Sincerely Subi

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We tried a million and one times to get this one right!! In the end I was rewarded for my efforts – with the full DevaCurl line!

Sending so much love and bright vibes your way. xoxo

Sincerely,

Subi

The Mighty Avokini: Kianda Swimwear

Ladies you’ve never seen a swimsuit like this before! One Clue: A V O C A D O S

Hey there!

I love avocados. Before the avocado desserts, before the avocado art, before the hype. They have always been one of my favorite things. Avocados are so good for you, with the unsaturated fat and all those good enzymes, it’s sure to make a good side to a hearty meal. It’s a staple in any Caribbean diet, in Haitian Culture we love having it with rice and meat dishes on the side or with warm bread. So imagine how happy I was to find a bathing suit that had a print of my favorite thing.

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Kianda Swimwear is a company based in Portugal. It is Female owned and all of the swimwear is hand-stitched and made with love. On the Kianda Instagram page, beautiful women who have bought their products are featured wearing the Avokini and living their best lives. Buying an Avokini isn’t hard at all, all it takes is a message, trust, and a little bit of waiting. I contacted them through Facebook Messenger, their current platform for sales, and let them know I was interested. They ask you your size and email, for tracking purposes, and they send you a reference by PayPal to make the payment. I wasn’t sure if I was going to get it because I was hesitant about the price, but it’s a one of a kind swimsuit! I had to have it.


The Avokini is PERFECT  for any body type. Confidence is Key. With slits down the middle and sides, this suit is the definition of sexy, sleek and fun. It fits and hugs all of your curves, and you can feel the love that was put into making it.


An amazing thing about the Avokini is that the straps are C U S T O M I Z A B L E !!! You know how you have a suit and you think, man if only this was a halter, or oo I want straps now. With the Avokini, this is possible.  The straps connect in 4 pieces that you can move, tie or hang to your heart’s desire. I just went for the as-is two strap style.Comfort  and cute is my go-to and this suit does it all. I love the way it feels on my body, the material is so soft, which is important because my skin is the most sensitive.

Wearing the Avokini, I felt so confident and comfortable. You’re sure to be a showstopper at any pool/beach/summer event with these threads!

Head to the Kianda Swimwear Facebook page or Instagram for more and let me know what you think in the comments below! Until the next one of a kind find!

Gathering good vibes and sunny skies to send your way,

Sincerely,

Subi

 

#SubiTo21

Hey there,

21. The year when your age in America finally opens doors that have been closed to you for so long. You can rent a car, book vacations, buy your own drinks (finally), change your driver’s license (we all know we don’t look the same as we did when we were 16) and you can order a glass of wine at dinner. 21. The beginning of a new era, an age to be reckoned with, the end of adolescence.

This year on July 5, 2016 I turned 21 years old. Since 19 I had made it my mission to be better, do more, give more, worry and complain less, to give myself room to grow, to learn from my mistakes and to give myself grace. So at 20 I went to France and I was free to do all of this and more; I had no more excuses. I made the most genuine friends in such a short amount of time and on my birthday they showed me a reflection of what I saw in them.

I woke up that morning refreshed and not feeling any different than I did the day before, but there was something in the air, and I couldn’t wait to figure it out. I went out to an appointment and then went window shopping in the shops downtown. In my Kente dress from Africa and my braids flowing, with no makeup on I truly felt like my best self. The sun was shining and nothing could take my joy. My dear friend then took me for a day of pampering- manicures and pedicures and gifted me with a candle for a day of self care; it couldn’t get better.

I went out for margaritas with my Haitian big sisters, and my newest friends whom I met in France took me out for dinner at this new Italian place in town called the Dolce Vita. The pasta is made in house and the bread is fresh out of the oven every hour; I was overwhelmed. (I really love bread.) The love and light that my friends showed me this day was a true showcase of friendship. I am the planner, the big picture taker, the dinner party hostess, the girl who always thinks out meticulous plans for the ones I love. This was the first time that I was on the receiving end of the spectrum. I cried several times. It’s rare that I find people who really know me the way that these guys do, and for such a short time. I was touched, humbled and I felt so loved.

I gave thanks for all of my friends and the impact they have had in my life over these few years that weekend and I hope they felt the love that I have for them in every moment. I can’t wait to see what year 21 will bring. I am ready to be vulnerable and let the Light in.

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Good vibes and sunshine headed your way.

P.S. Should I start an advice section? You guys should email me/ comment below on topics you want to hear about! Can’t wait! Xoxo

Sincerely,

Subi